The portrait took the form of an oversized, fully saturated colour Cibachrome photograph turned upside down in which my naked body was cropped and positioned close to the picture plane. The scale of the image intensified the body's physical presence and created a direct, confrontational relationship with the viewer. Water is expelled forcefully from my mouth toward the camera, projecting outward beyond the image itself as if directed toward the audience and the wider social world. This gesture carried multiple meanings: an act of aggression, release, resistance, and bodily assertion. Dramatic overhead lighting activated the surface of the skin, emphasising the contours, curves, and musculature of the body while creating an atmosphere that was simultaneously theatrical and intimate. The image explored the unstable territory between public and private experience, fantasy and reality, concealment and exposure.
The work also functioned as a personal act of resistance against educational, religious, and social institutions that attempted to suppress individuality, sexuality, and creative freedom. Through its confrontational scale, 140 x 110cm, erotic charge, and unapologetic self-representation, Puff asserted the right to occupy space, to be seen, and to speak openly from a position historically pushed to the margins. The naked body became both vulnerable and defiant, resisting shame while acknowledging the risks attached to queer visibility during the years of the AIDS epidemic and now fighting for gay rights within the conservative structures of Irish and English society (Clause 28) during this period.
Puff/ National Portrait Collection of Ireland/ University of Limerick, Ireland, 2002
This Cibachrome portrait was commissioned for the National Self-Portrait Collection. The work formed part of an ongoing exploration of sexuality, vulnerability, representation, and the politics of my body within Irish cultural life. Entitled Puff, the image deliberately reclaimed a derogatory slang term historically used by heterosexual society to insult and marginalise gay men. By appropriating this language within the context of a formal portrait commission, the work transformed an expression of hostility into an act of visibility, confrontation, and self-definition.